"The Terrace"

“Without this playing with fantasy, no creative work has ever yet come to birth. The debt we owe to the play of the imagination is incalculable.”

― C.G. Jung

“A man who has not passed through the inferno of his passions has never overcome them. As far as we can discern, the sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light in the darkness of mere being. Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves.”

― C.G. Jung

Importance of Intuition → a Idea that I think maybe,, Plato was really thinking ,when trying to define Forms,,and why he found so difficult to teach. "Intuition1.-------a little bird An undisclosed source; a secret witness; "intuition". This phrase refers to the ubiquitous yet unobtrusive nature of a small bird that, theoretically at least, is able to observe many covert goings-on as it flies through the air. Since the beginning of recorded history (and no doubt before), birds have been respected and, at times, revered for their godlike powers of flight and sight. Many Greek and Roman soothsayers cited their purported understanding of avian language as a source of their knowledge and intuitive or psychic abilities. According to the Koran, the sacred book of Islam, Solomon was advised of Queen Sheba’s activities by a tiny lapwing, and Muhammad himself was counseled by a pigeon. In addition, some early religious woodcuts show various popes listening to the whispered advice of a small bird. These and many other legends have given rise to the almost universal adage, a little bird told me, an expression indicating that the speaker knows a secret or other confidential matter by virtue of intuition or some undisclosed source.

A novel of a Polyandry relationship involving two men and a Lady

'Πολυάνωρ γυνή "

(“Wife of many husbands”) in this case two

        "Terrace"(I had never heard the term" berdache",prior to conceiving idea for Terrace) once I had,true research,all the parts fell together.

Main Charactors....Jodi /middle aged,attractive female artist,heterosexual......William/late 30's,attractive black male medical doctor,heterosexual.......Michael/30's,attractive,white male,carpenter-artist model,fem-male,"two-spirit type"

 Notes:       1.This is a very "Unique" type polyandry relationship

        2.Each of these 3 charactors,,plays a essential element..Michael's part key compontent for it to work as "Polyandry-relationship"

        3. To understand Michael,,you see his back ground based on true life experience as a "Fem-male"/berdache (nsfw)

        4. In a nearly secret way for 8 years was able to "mate" with many straight black men,,in a crazy breeding frenzy in

            search of a Black straight male,he could play the part as wife for.(as a Fem-male) and still has not found a mate!,,and became

            celibate in 2006...from tired of the search.

         5.Now lets go back in time with a" Scenario"..hope fully by now if you have paid "Attention" on this site you know my meaning
            of scenario...It is the year 500 bc and some where along the upper Mississippi river,there lives a small band of peoples,,,
            20 adult males and only 12 adult females....
             one of the adult males is what they call a "Berdache" " missionaries in the Mississippi Valley occasionally encountered Native             Americans who could be classified neither as men nor women. They called such individuals berdaches, a French term for                   younger partners in male homosexual relationships. In fact, Plains Indian berdaches are best described as occupying an                     alternative or third gender role, in which traits of men and women are combined with those unique to berdache status. Male                   berdaches did women's work, cross-dressed or combined male and female clothing,'''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''                   and formed relationships with non-berdache men."

              A.     If 12 men have selected one of the females(there being 12),
                      there are 7 single males whom have no adult female to breed with...and 1 fem-male(adult,Michael's role) whom is very                         willing to be "bred" by those 7 single males...this Berdache ,(Michael) is not only is willing,he wants to be!.
                      also because  of the varying ages of the adult males,,,say oldest 4 are 50's,then next down,,30's.then 20's..
                      .say Michael is 33,,,(mature age is 18)...there is a good chance that at least a half the males,whom currently are:
                      partnered with one of the of the now Adult females!,,,where single when Michael was mature enough to "mate" and 
                      they openly mated with him,,until a female came of age....Because this almost had to been a very open
                      and Egalitarianism.. society!..Michael is in female role,he helps with child care,washing,clothing making etc.yet has:
                          Strength and ability to protect them, especially in the absence of the men...there is no worry(fear) from the men:     
                       Whom have mated with one of the females...of Michael mating with them..he is one of them!.:
                       .has no Psychological needs or desires to mate with any other then the Adult Males..of all of whom can,:
                        openly  mate  with Michael(open and consented to by the adult females)..so in essense Michael was available to:
                        "All 19 adult males at any given time"....if one steps back and looks at this,,,it does some vital things which keep ,
                         "This Band of Peoples"...intact,peaceful,content,,etc.

                        By being with the females(whom accept him as he is)...he helps them,they are not jealous of him taking one of the                               taken males....the remaining single males have Michael routinely for pleasure(out of view of children of course)
                        yet is often gang-banged,,say if band is on the move,rituals(all adults) to show Michael's role,,and even to show
                        thanks as to how important he is(make him feel not alone,as he would never be able to have a partner as the others)

                         due to the fact,,he belongs to all the Adult males!
                       Michael is more then sexual full-filled-(most likely as I actually did many times a day,and gang-banged often..................
                        Satisfied,as all the other males" bred "him as a "female",the female have a mate for child bearing and intimate Love
                         By being bred by all adult males,  viewed by all adult females Psychologically and Societally "Michael is Female"..
                         There is no need for cross-dressing,sex change operation to be female!

                   B. Another Berdache is born,,which is likely one of the children amongst them already...to start next generation.

                    C..My Theory if another Berdache,was in the same close age as Michael,,another "Band"..would most likely be formed
                    or a larger population of the original "Band" ,,that encompasses Michael.
                    D. A question I am asking myself at this point.."How many men could I truly keep sexually satisfied,in a band society as 
                         this,,from my experience?...the number of men whom have bred me in a day-97.....lets say in reality after taking 
                         of duties to the women and children,,,energy expelled..and the men whom wished to Mount me,climax quickly,,5min.
                         in a gang-bang fashion,,,my experience is after about 20 men.(.who are really thrusting hard to climax fast)..
                         then I have to clean-up...in about a hour do it again,,daily..I think I could bred with about 40...which would be tiring!
      2/16/2018....Today at work,.,I pondered imagining so long ago,,this band of people living along the river what is called the 
                           "Effigy Mound Culture".. (The Effigy Mound Culture extends from Dubuque, Iowa, north into southeast Minnesota,                                  across southern Wisconsin from the Mississippi to Lake Michigan, and along the Wisconsin-Illinois boundary. The                             counties of Dubuque, Clayton, and Allamakee contain almost all the effigy mounds found in Iowa).



At this pMichael has been modeling for Jodi for many months already,knows Michael in the "berdache type role" with William, whom is a Straight heterosexual black male,a medical doctor.

First Time Jodi and William meet---scenario (Jodi is walking into the front room of house,there is a large roofed front porch ,screen is door is open and William sets inside near the screen door to porch...,Jodi and William have never met,...Michael had been performing Fellatio on William,but had to run out to the carriage house,(his quarters) to get vasoline ).Imagine You are Jodi,..you walk in the room see a little bird just sitting on the tip of my friends long ,thick cock,yet is firm.yet soft to,and it is pointed straight up toward the ceiling..you have never met my friend,yet I have told you a lot about him,you know what we do sexually.''' ....My friend looks at you,,,says hi...I am William....he tries to cover himself ,yet saying ..Oh Jodi,,we didnt expect you back..at same time trying not to disturb the little bird sitting where it sits....Jodi..oh your fine,,let the bird sit a bit,,the little bird,,most likely hasn't sat in such a place ,as on a big black cock like that..matter of fact..I can't say I have...yet Michael likes I know..thats a fact,,I know..Jodi..has a few large sketch pads she just bought in,in her arms,,so..she says ,,I'll be back,,got put these in their place..then on down the hall,,she goes...the little bird..too..takes flight..out the open screen door,just as Michael appears(total nude..as he always is living with Jodi)..with his jar of vasoline which he aims to use for lube.."You meet Jodi".? ..as he watchs William scrambling to get his shorts on..,all the while explaining,in a hused voice " yeah,she walked in,here I am sitting on her couch,with a little bird sitting on the tip of my erect cock!"...what did she say?,..William looking at him silly like,rolling his eyes..replies.."what did she say!,,she said,,let the little bird sit there,it most like,maybe hasn't sat on a big black cock before!"..Michael chuckles.."yep that's Jodi in total Form!..then he heads down the hall..saying "I get her so,you's can meet formally...William walks out the open screen door,,thinking "maybe I can see were the little  bird sits now,,as he focuses on the motives of the little bird from his past... to compose himself there has to be a meaning!..then he laughs at himself,,,realizing he has never had a little bird sit on the tip of his cock,let alone while sitting there talking to a Lady he had never meet.

Looking out over the long narrow  lawn..it's self bordered on all sides by old majestic hardwoods,concealing the outside world,and it's very self ,almost as if a place some where in ancient times,as though a Faun or Satyr might suddenly appear from behind a tree holding the little bird in hand.
Michael found Jodi,,rumaging about in the studio,,as though searching for something..I see you and William met ..Jodi turns smiles,,,yeah...I see why you and a certain little bird have a similar attraction...!..chuckling...he replies with a quick..Yep,,seems so,,,sorry ,,I mistaked the time you would be getting home...J--replying no!  you didn't..as she finally finds her camera.. I left the meeting early..seeing it so nice out,,and excited to meet William...besides,, glad I did ,,what a great way to meet,him,,very memorable indeed!...she grabs his hand,,,come on let 's go see him before he flees from his embrassment....heading down the hall,,J- "maybe he will let me watch you's do what you intended to do with that vasoline?.......M---"he is shy.."..they get to living room..J--"he did flee"...jokingly..M--"he is on Porch I see him"..walking out on to the porch..J---says The little bird had to go' ..(in a sad quiet voice) William turns smiling as looking downward a bit,,then replying.."yes, just looking at your great trees,I think the little bird might be up there instead"..Michael pipes in.."I m glad to be the one to share you two,,now let's eat,,"chuckling...as they did as well...William in a serious inquiring style "may I ask how long you have lived here?"..J---looking at him with a respect that only comes between people who share or even are able to share the very moment in which they are and where they are,,the the type of feeling that sends a chill ,to make you aware,then subsides,,allowing one to become fully aware,..she replies.."All of my life,, other then my time at school"..reaching out for his hand and taking it.."come sit down here,,on the bench,",her self sitting ,then him ."look ,see all the largest trees,,my great,great grand father planted them 190 years ago when he built this,,there are still 98 of the orginal 100..all are recorded in journals he kept,..the date he planted them,where they where born,even the very spot,,he found it,he named it according to what he felt upon first seeing it"...W---"that means you know the name of every one of those trees?"..J---"Yes,,,and history,,,see" he felt they have a soul",,and it is a tradition you might say we -learn- "the Trees'...look about,,now"!..standing up,she then asks..What can I get you to drink,I am in need of something like Ice Tea..you's?..Michael says..."You's talk"knowing what William liked,,I will get us drinks..and headed to kitchen...William stood and walked out to the porch rail..."All those Trees have a name...",saying it almost as if to him self..then turning to glance back at her eyes.J---"I'll will tell you all of them in time,if you wish"..W--"yes very much I wish,,pausing,he then says" I can see why Michael talks so often of these woods"..J--"yes ,this is the best place for him to live,,and I need him here for rest of my life"..glancing back at her eyes again,the thought of sincere,forms in his mind.as he replies"Yes he often says,"I need to be with Jodi",,as if it where someone saying "I need to breath the air to live".replying to that Jodi says"Thanks for sharing that thought of his with me,,means a lot..I know he wishes you to be here to"she hears Michael approaching and quickly says"we's can talk of that soon"....Michael walks in hands Jodi her ice tea,,William a Bombay sapphire on ice .then sits on the chair next to the bench,,looking at them both,says"Jodi tell all the tree names yet?'..chuckling..William looking at her,says" she promised me in time"..M---"you'll need time for that..they are all greek myth's..every one has it's own history,"..Michael points to one at the far end of lawn,,which nearly a football field distance away,,,"see the one right in the center,,That is
Pan"  Jodi pipes in,"yes Michael likes Pan a lot.,lots" looking at him with a smirk,,Michael,,replies "I was born with a imagination,that wanders of a bit now and then is all."  Speaking of which,,I brought my camera out here for a reason."looking at William.."Michael and I have talked quite a bit about a series of art works I am doing with him modeling,some I want to be erotic",looking then at Michael.then back to William.so with you guy's permission,,I want to just be a artist,,watching what you's do naturally together,..that means here,anywhere,anytime etc."..William replies.."thanks for the welcome,,and I do feel at home,I must say."      "You are" Jodi replies..Michael ,hands William the jar of vasoline ,gets on his knee's with his bottom facing William,inviting copulation,,no words need spoken, William slides his short off,steps out of them and kneels behind Michael whom waits,eyes closed,facing the porch floor.Taking the jar of vasoline,then removing the lid,William dips two fingers full of lube,,greases his big black cock til it is slick,then rubs some into Michael's bottom,Michael twitchs,as he softly moans out.with one hand holding Michael's hip,the other he uses to aim and guide ,in seconds the big tip,disappers into Michael's bottom..at the same time ,Michael,mumbles "oh yes"..then he begins pushing his body back to help William slide deeper in,slowly..and with Jodi's amazement,,all of William's cock is up inside Michael..Slowly yet with quick shallow thrusts,William holds himself fully ,completely ,as if locked together,,they both move in unision,Michael  squirming about,as William thrusts,to bury ever inch into Michael,,they go at this for some time..both moaning,,Michael almost wimpering,,then William,slides almost his whole length out except for the head of his cock,then with a swift thrust.slams back fully back up in Michael,,he yells out,,at the same time Jodi twitchs backwards,almost feeling in herself how that felt,.Quickly sliding his cock back out..William,,reachs down and scoops up more lube,,rubs it on both of them,,pops his tip back in,,and with a quick full thrust sinking it fully in with a slap ,nearly lifting Michael's body off the floor,with a slight wimper.and cry out ,,then no stop .Michael,,starts pleading,,don't stop,.William doesn't and soon is in a full out cycle as though a steam engine pumping with long hard thrusts,,until he finally moans out"I'm cumming",and with a final hard deep thrust,,he buries himself completely up in Michael,..Jodi watches with fascination.as William leans over on to Michael ,holding himself deep in,,and with quick jerking spasms,begins to ejactulate process with each spasm and jerk,half a dozen times,,then William lays to the side,to the floor pulling Michael with,,his cock still up in Michael..they lay in silence,,yet Michael still twitching about on the cock in him ,as though savoring it,Jodi knows Michael is getting what it needs.and wants


A look at how a relationship like this could work,,,in many ways under certain circumstances

I began writing a novel about 3 years ago,which the manuscript is about 800 pages,.."The Terrace" y(William and Jodi and myself (Michael) are main charactors)..Jodi is a female artist,William is a medical doctor,myself a carpenter/artist model and truly 100% fem-male.

9/16/2018- have not looked at this page in quite so time,quite a humble.yet jumbled bunch of my thoughts,yet still the Idea for myself in a relationship as with Jodi and William ideal,even more so then orginally writing "Terrace" over 4 years ago.There many more aspects to "Terrace," that are not sexual,yet the "berdache" aspect is most important aspect to make it very "Un-traditional"

My point here pertaining to the topic at hand is Michael belongs to a very,very unique club,called the "Indigo Club",which is a group of highly educated black straight men (Donors),"..the number of "Donors" is 50,same for Recipients-10.The goal,,is that the Donors impregnate each Recipient no less then once every two weeks,yet can as often as wishs if feasible,for example in the story ..Michael starts his day out 7 days a week-5am to11am,,going to the Indigo club,,there is a private room..more like small apartment,,he can read,,etc..while he waits for a Donor..(which is always soon)..due to the fact the Donor must impregnate all 50 Recipients in two weeks,at least once.Yet is stressed to impregnate as much as possible(they all have a equal vested interest in the research) So in all reality Michael finds the demand for at least himself is enough so that if he can get impregnated at least 5 times every morning,he has been with all 50 Donors. However if a Donor has for some reason not,impregnated him,,there must be a time set-up to allow them to meet ,,if example on agreement with Michael and 10 Donors on a weekend to group impregnate Michael(everybody in same room same time) ,,which is routine as all 50 Donors know each other, Recipients ,do not know each other!...threesome are often in morning due to fact two Donors work together,golf etc. Also the Donors can be with the Recipients as often as wishs with the Recipients  consent(note→There is no need for bondage,s/m type acts,,and is seen as "primordial")by all ,also all Donors must be married with female wives,whom have given full consent.A issue that arises is friendships form,and all the Donors are very healthly,active men..thus many wish to see Michael more then once every two weeks,thus Michael finds time is a issue,as far as seeing all the Donors,,he loves to be "impregnated",he loves the feeling of satisfying them sexual..he likes them all,some more then others due to....." Form"....1.physical reasons(looks,cock size,to Michael,bigger the better.their skill at love-making,their mount time,,(mount time describes the time the Donor is able to thrust in and out of his bottom prior to ejaculation) and Amount- Average ejaculation volume ranges from 2 to 6 ml, according to most medical sources. Higher volumes have been reported and are considered normal, but consistently higher volumes are considered a disease called hyperspermia, which may bring about many complications including sterility. These are the medical facts. On the other hand, in this pages I've read of someone claming his record ejaculation volume was as high as 13 ml,   etc)........................2. and emotional reasons(interests,repore..etc,)note; this is factual for myself personally as far as..Form,1 and 2..in reality when I perform-" FELLATIO  "I am able to deep-throat 10" (learning on Aren) as well as anally.just my flavor you might say.Anyway-"Terrace"  is a Myth,,,like all fables,fiction,etc.

In Reality I do believe a True "Indigo Group" could be formed, it could be 20 and 3, 30 and 6 etc.I only used 50 in story(50 Donors know each other 10 -Recipients  from my own actual experience, of being Gang-Banged (my wordpress site), all one has to do is be Open-minded to see how it could work, note: in my Scenario,the Recipients are Fem-male,they have to be single or envolved only with a member of the group (partnered with),all Recipients and Donors know each other and spouses,girl friends(of Donors),no imformation leaves the group,(why I chose 50 as well,after that number,it would be tougher to remain tribe like),the Recipients would get breed by each Donor at least once every two weeks(50 times min.),that would be a realistic.Example, between 1997, during the week it was common that, nearly every day I at least performed "fellatio" on one guy,often ,few evening I would have 2 or 3(together) breed me.very common if counting how many times "I received a climax"both anally and orally,for it to be 15 times.

Weekends,I might see half a dozen different groups of guys (in a hour 6 guys could breed me easily,then I would leave.),it wasn't uncommon to receive 30 or 40 climax's as often guys would climax several times.most often I had a guy orally,and another anally at same moment.


excerpt from Realizing the context or true form between my friend above I will call" William"..1. we were and are true friends(care much for each other)..one day after William and I had copulated,,a friend of his stopped by,whom I had never met..he and William talked a bit,then he left..upon him leaving,I commented "he is very sexy"..William replied "yeah he has a big cock too!"..I made it sound as if joking,but I then said.."maybe he'd like to breed me",William replied "I'll call and ask him right now!,,before he gets to far"..he called him,within 15 minutes,,William's friend was coming in the door,I got on my knees,he mounted me,,within 5min's he was climaxing inside my bottom....this became fairly routine for some time. Matter of fact soon I was asking both William and his friend(Aren),if they would call me "Michelle" instead of Michael..Myth of sorts..yet for myself made me more female,,I wanted to present myself to them as that I know,I even began dressing fem like for them,when it was time for me to be breed(I had to be very clean anally,which takes time)well lubed especially with Aren cause he is very large 10"...for me I would be somewhat in a state of Heat, meaning they were welcome to copulate with me as much as they where able,often if we could,all three of us would take a weekend trip somewhere,have our cabin,hotel etc,We may go see a site in the local,,come back,,They both would climax in me,,both are multi-orgasmic,,so often several times,,maybe nap..go out again,etc..come back..repeat .Of course for me personally I was getting impregnated,thus more semen in my body by two people I adored!,for them they where getting pleasure of impregnating me with their semen(procreation even if sub-conscientiously)..Myth..it still is very powerful ,,,to point of very spiritual for myself...

Partible paternity

Anthropologist Stephen Beckerman points out that at least 20 tribal societies accept that a child could, and ideally should, have more than one father, referring to it as "partible paternity."[17] This often results in the shared nurture of a child by multiple fathers in a form of polyandric relation to the mother, although this is not always the case.[18] One of the most well known examples is that of Trobriand "virgin birth." The matrilineal Trobriand Islanders recognize the importance of sex in reproduction but do not believe the male makes a contribution to the constitution of the child, who therefore remains attached to their mother's lineage alone. The mother's non-resident husbands are not recognized as fathers, although the mother's co-resident brothers are, since they are part of the mother's lineage.

The twist two this is Michael does not copulate with Jodi ever,yet shares duties of motherhood with her in raising her and William's child,he teaches the child as the child grows,care for the child at all times,such as when William and Jodi go out,Michael,sexual pleasures William openly with Jodi,,though William is heterosexual..because his friendship/love for Michael. and knowing Michael is equal part of the relationship..Michael is free to please William by way of FELLATIO or by having William enter him anally.


excerpt from The virtues of promiscuity   "Slutty" behavior is good for the species. That's the conclusion of a new wave of research on the evolutionary drives behind sexuality and parenting.

Women everywhere have been selflessly engaging in trysts outside of matrimony for a good long time and for excellent reasons. Anthropologists say female promiscuity binds communities closer together and improves the gene pool.

More than 20 tribal societies accept the principle that a child could, and ideally ought to, have more than one father, according to Pennsylvania anthropologist Stephen Beckerman. "It begins to crop up in a lot of places," says Beckerman, who has reviewed dozens of reports on tribes from South America, New Guinea, Polynesia and India as co-editor of the newly released book, "Cultures of Multiple Fathers."

        Hawkes says females likely hook up with multiple males for safety -- a mother's strong emotional bonds with more than one fellow provide an extra- protective hand in times of danger. An economic incentive promotes female infidelity in Bar society. All of the Bar children who had more than one father were more likely to survive into adulthood, fortified by small gifts of fish and game in times of scarcity.
   "Multiple lovers, that's just part of the life. It's recreation, just like races and running. It's all done in the spirit of joy and fun," says William Crocker of the Smithsonian Institution, who has studied the Brazilian tribe since 1957. When a woman got pregnant with her husband, she would go out to find as many as five more "fathers" for her fetus. Because every bit of semen was believed to contribute to the baby, a dedicated mom looked for a variety of desirable traits in her lovers: sexual skills, good looks, oratory talents, top-notch singing abilities -- and naturally, a good provider

"Because every bit of semen was believed to contribute to the baby".  In reality in my past..for quite a few years promiscuity was my life style,,yet as a fem-male,my aim was black men educated,straight if at all possible,nice looking,,yet willing to enter me anally and climax/ yet FELLATIO  often was enough for them,,many would tell me anal seemed to gay.

What is interesting to myself is this was back in late 90's early 2000,when I was actually having sex with all these men,,I did not know what "polyandry mean't".I did know I was fem like,I couldn't relate to being gay or bi-sexual,,,just didn't seem to be correct term to define myself,..I was using the phrase to the guys almost always.."I need you to climax in me"..yet why? I asked myself.

..Some thing to I have to illustrate,is the impact of having taken a male into myself anally,,as a man. For myself I did feel tainted,less of a man..."greeks-Indeed if the Greeks and Romans did not outlaw it, it was because the shame of the act was punishment enough – though the weight of shame fell mostly on the penetrated.and n this world the notion of sex between two grown men was deeply taboo as it was seen to reduce the passive partner to the level of a woman. "....To my self though,after a short time,,being reduced to the passive partner "women",fit me perfectly.This excerpt from "Cultures of Multiple Fathers." ..Stephen Beckerman writes,"Less than 50 years ago, Canela women, who live in Amazonian Brazil, enjoyed the delights of as many as 40 men one after another in festive rituals. When it was time to have a child, they'd select their favorite dozen or so lovers to help their husband with the all-important task. Even today, when the dalliances of married Bar ladies in Colombia and Venezuela result in a child, they proudly announce the long list of probable fathers. The much-touted evolutionary bargain of female fidelity for food -- trotted out by evolutionary psychologists with maddening regularity -- just doesn't hold up.".....I can relate to this.. as it was common in a weeks time for me to have performed both FELLATIO  and been anally impregnated 30 times or more(maybe for example 10 guys I knew several times)..often though in same house at same time by as many as 6 guys.."gang-banged"..if it was a all night party,they each might mount me 3 or 4 times..one night at party, I counted 47 times,,taking climax anally/.6 times orally.(this was common,I knew them all,,if a stranger came into the mix,I might accept him or might not,,I was very selective,,and no diseases  was law!

   Still to this day looking back,I ask myself "how did I come out of this safe?"

...except I may be full of many guys DNA(which doesn't bother me as I fairly certain,I will not be with a female again)..which is what the "Indigo club"(which was just a scenario at the time).. is about,yet when writing it I never heard of "Male Microchimerism"..let alone that sperm can do this.........."Sperm is alive. It is living cells. When it is injected into you it swims and attaches and burrows into your flesh. If its in your mouth it swims and climbs into your nasal passages, inner ear, and behind your eyes. Then digs in. It enters your blood stream and collects in your brain and spine. Like something out of a scifi movie."? I'm sure a topic like this someone might be studying it further!

    It was a time though,guys where experimenting,Yahoo had instant messenger and gay.com as well..it was easy to get started with meeting a lot of straight black guys,whom where at least curious about having a guy perform  FELLATIO on them,I was modeling a lot for many life drawing classes,,so around colleges,,once I started being with a guy on a regular basis,and we developed a friendship,I would tell them.."if you have any black friends you trust,and like tell them I be interested in pleasing them orally or anally"..often they might get on phone right then and there,,call a friend,,whom might come right over or call me fairly soon.

After about 6 months,I was seeing over 40 different guys in a given month,any many..many times a month..for example one month I kept track of how many times the guys actually climaxed in me,orally and anally both,,,that month it was 97 times from those 40 guys.I can relate to the,,,.Canela women, who live in Amazonian Brazil,,very much(article above)

    That is where the idea for the "Indigo club" comes from in "Terrace"

To me I find this very interesting...."

For years, scientists have said that a key way we differ from chimpanzees and other non-human primates is the development of a bargain between men and women: Men provide support to their partners and children, and in exchange women promise that those children are carrying their genes.

The bargain explains why in many cultures men go to great lengths to control female sexuality, as a way of ensuring certainty of paternity.

However, it turns out, "You can build a perfectly viable society even though you have male jealousy suppressed and you have a lack of female fidelity," said Stephen Beckerman, an anthropologist at the University of Pennsylvania.

They are not, he said, "elements that are part of human nature."


Indeed, even in modern Western societies, the rate of non-paternity - the percentage of children not fathered by their mother's long-term mate - has been estimated to be as high as 10 percent.

The shared paternity concept appears to be quite common in at least 18 separate tribes in South America, Beckerman said. In two studies, he said, children with multiple fathers had higher survival rates.

From a biological perspective, multiple matings close in time could set up a competition between the sperm of two men to fertilize a woman's egg, with the most robust sperm winning.


The phenomenon also serves as a "life insurance" policy for men, Beckerman pointed out. If they die, they know there is another man with a stake in his children who will watch out and care for them.

      "This evidence is a real thumb in the eye for that view," says Beckerman. Anthropologists claim, good judgment aside, evolution has nudged women a bit toward promiscuity and sexual adventure. In all well-studied primates, females exhibit a polyandrous tendency when given the opportunity to stray. Some who cheat appear to be more fertile, and the offspring of most are more likely to survive. Fooling around appears to have helped our ancestral mothers equip their little ones for success -- the sexual equivalent of reading to them every night or enrolling in the after-school chess club.

     "It makes the variation we're seeing in modern society so much more understandable," Hawkes says. If the anthropologists are right, monogamy may well be counter-evolutionary or an adaptation to modern life. Or perhaps the nuclear family has always been more of an ideal than a reality.

     Though I have been celibate nearly 12 years...." If a relationship as with Jodi and William,(in "Terrace")..presented it's self to me..I would par-take in it.as long as all the factors in the story,,where reality.apart from not being 30 something!..

1.I see this as a way to contend with high cost of day-care(fem-male stays with child)2. both working parents can rest,,yet there with child and the fem-male(all four together,thus the childs needs are better met.

Some Articles ,Stephen Beckerman has authored

 or mentioned in

...The key trait's of the characters to myself are Michael is content with being a fem-male.yet not transgender type,he isn't jealous,due to fact he and William where very close friends,before either meet Jodi,William wishs to have children as Jodi does,he has been sexual a top-male to Michael all along,routinely pleasing Michael by copulating(ejaculating in Michael's bottom and mouth)Jodi and William are the child to be born,and the two legally married,the child will carry William's name.

A topic I have studied quite a bit is "Cuckold"...I was involved with several women,whom I requested to cuckold me(prior to my first encounter sexual with a man)

I never have been a "top"(go in a man's bottom with my cock) with a man,nor ever desired to,

I no longer can get a erection to go inside a female,nor no desire to

,,last few women I tried to be with,I asked if they would use strap-on dildo to penetrate me,I simply pleasured them orally'

I often would cry out to a guy as he went in and out of my bottom.."I wish I could have your child or baby"..I see now that "Anima" side of my self was coming out..,then wanting all of them to call me Michelle,or asking after if I was a good sissy or fem-boy etc.

..yet I felt freed,,as though a great weight off my shoulders.

    I personally know if there were a club like the "Indigo" club I define in Terrace I would knocking at the door offering to be a "Recepient"..from my observation on the internet,,I would guess 1000's of other white guys would be knocking on the door too!..maybe not in the context I have in mind,but to be impregnated,,I'd bet so!

...I have noticed "cuckolding is a big thing now.as well as white guys seeking black top men.

The twist to Terrace is that as far as polyandry,,I haven't found where the one male does not mate with the female,and the Alpha male does,,the Alpha male mainly copulates the fem-male to keep the (what I call a "Poly-triad" relationship intact,equal,no-one is left out)..Michael's role is to make sure both Jodi and William are cared for to the highest degree(altruistic-one of the first researchers to begin to solve the paradox of how the evolutionary struggle to survive and reproduce could give rise to creatures that never reproduce and spend their lives  helping others to survive.

  • —Carol Kaesuk Yoon
  • Biologist Carol Kaesuk Yoon explores the historical tension between evolutionary biology and taxonomy, the science of classification founded by Swedish botanist Carl Linnaeus in the eighteenth century. Linnaeus relied on intuitive, visual judgments. Isn't a whale, swimming around with fins, a fish? But after Darwin discovered evolution, taxonomy eventually moved into the laboratory and yielded results counterintuitive to humanity's innate predisposition to order the world. Not only is a whale not a fish, there is no such thing as a fish at all, scientists tell us. By conceding scientific authority to taxonomists, Yoon argues, we've surrendered our observational skills and contributed to our own alienation from nature. Naming Nature is a stirring reminder of the urgency of staying connected to the natural world.

    How the Idea of the "Indigo Club" was conceived

            1.The idea from real my real life experience with being -Gang-Banged- routinely  by groups of black straight men

             2. How it profoundly effected me psychologically
             3. How it a safe method for men in this position/ and how society oppresses,..Human evolution,
             4 How a society asks this.."New research suggests that, despite modern technology and industrialization, humans                   still are evolving  . ..how blind they are,,and leads to "Oppression which is the prolonged, unjust treatment or control             of people by others

              5. How the "Gang-Bang" became like a "culture"

    Plato's Forms,Hierarchism,Taxonomy,Territory and Mating

    Most people sleep-walk through life, not understanding what is going on about them. Yet experience of words and deeds can enlighten those who are receptive to their meaning. (The opening sentence is ambiguous: does the 'forever' go with the preceding or the following words? Heraclitus prefigures the semantic complexity of his message.)

    I refer to this person as "Her"

    I am almost certain she feels same as I, also we wish tiny penis,as we now longer wish to use our penis sexual,for myself that has been a defining event,,(only wish to be in female role sexually )I don't wish,nor care to even get a erection

    Interest in triads and triadic research settings for the study of inter-organizational issues is growing. A literature review of inter-organizational studies, claiming a use of triadic research design, shows that the terms “triad” and “triadic” have been used to describe many different types of inter-organizational phenomena. However, not all studies involving a context of three actors are actually examining triads. This paper offers a robust definition of three-actor constellations qualifying as triads. Moreover, it elaborates on different types of inter-organizational triads, based on two aspects of collectivity; cohesion and the ability to act as a single entity. The definition of inter-organizational triads and the categorization of different types of triads will hopefully encourage further studies of triads; the smallest and simplest network which offers insights, which cannot be achieved in the study of single actors or dyads.

    Triad refers to a group of three people in sociology. It is one of the simplest human groups that can be studied and is mostly looked at by microsociology. The study of triads and dyads was pioneered by German sociologist Georg Simmel at the end of the nineteenth century.

    A triad can be viewed as a group of three people that can create different group interactions. This specific grouping is common yet overlooked in society for many reasons. Those being that it is compared to the lives of others, how they shape society, and how communication plays a role in different relationships scenarios.[1]

    It was derived in the late 1800s to early 1900s and evolved throughout time to shape group interactions in the present. Simmel also hypothesized between dyads and triads and how they may differ. A dyad is a group of two people that interact while a triad is another person added on to create more communicational interactions.[2] For example: adding an extra person, therefore creating a triad, this can result in different language barriers, personal connection, and an overall impression of the third person.[2]

    Simmel wanted to convey to his audience that a triad is not a basic group with positive interactions, but how these interactions can differ depending on person to person.

    Sibling relationships

    Both tests and studies have been conducted as to how siblings interact and how age, gender, and the amount of siblings can create a triad. A majority of the population has doubled over the last decade and recently has been proven that the more parents conceive, the better outcome a child will have when relating to other siblings. It can all depend on the relationships that different families have acquired as children get older. Creating and distinguishing between how a family can interact is a perfect everyday example of a triad in sociology. Applying the attachment theory created by John Bowlby can help decipher the differences between communication and interactions across the world.

    Closed form

    In triadic closure, a group of three people can form relationships between each individual in that group. Therefore, creating both personal and emotional connections amongst all three individuals. This can be extremely important for others to understand that each person in this triad performs different roles and has different characteristics.[3]

    Open form

    Even though a triad consists of three people, an open form of a relationship can alter because two out of three members in this group can clash. This can be due to both structural construction and informational construction. They both provide a means of stability and assurance to sustain an open form relationship into a closed form relationship.[3] Structural construction can impose stress and clustering as a sense of bad communication between individuals and their different interactions. Informational construction conveys the need for privacy and how various individuals can clash when knowing something the other does not.[3] This can be for societies own advantage.

    The birth of modernity and how it has shaped society

    Georg Simmel goes into depth on the idea and how he creates the basis of a triad and what led him to his findings. It goes into discussing how places have taken triads shape. For example, in World War two he categorized the war into three various sections—European nationalism, materialism and imperialism.[1] These three fall under "mammonism" this is the support of americanism in world war two and its effects that resulted from the war.[1]

    Exchange and cohesion in dyads and triads

    Simmel conveys how cohesion has played a role in distinguishing between a dyad a triad. Three main factors that have led to these diverse groups is justified by 1) Dyads result in less behavioral changes when compared to triads, 2) Bonds that coincide more with triads than dyads, and 3) Emotion plays a bigger role when communicating between two people (dyad) versus a group with three people (triad).[4] The last factor is mainly because communication and trust can be altered when mixing emotions between relationships. While in a group of three people it is less likely because the majority constantly communicate and come to an agreement as to what is best.[4]

    Triadic closure

    Georg Simmel had studied the means of how interaction including sports can alter or contribute to how a group can communicate.[5] Going through a list of those that the player is either friends or enemies with, will then result if there is a positive or negative correlation between the two. This theory is known as triadic closure and was introduced by George Simmel.[5] Network closure has provided a basis of social structure and independent actions amongst other individuals. Social structure and structural action was formed on the foundation of his or her own opinions as one together.[5]

    Triad relationship

    A poly-fi triad is a closed triad relationship. They consider each other equal partners in an egalitariantriad relationship and will not have any other partners but each other. The partners will all be sexual together, as a group or in any pairing, and no pair has more power or control in the relationship than the other partner. All are equal.

    To get an individual to change their attitude about something, they must be persuaded. The ability to persuade someone to change their attitude is dependant on three factors:

    • 1.Status of the persuader - Someone of high status who is knowledgeable and genuine is likely to be successful
    • 2.Clarity of the message - A clear, concise and accurate argument should be put forward
    • 3.Ability to understand the message - The individual being persuaded must be capable of understanding the message
    Cognitive Dissonance

    A mismatch in the triadic model (above) will cause a dissonance (imbalance) in the mind of the person being persuaded due to the introduction of new information affecting the cognitive (belief) or affective (emotional) component. The only way to reduce this imbalance is to change their behaviour

    "Losing one's Religion"

    This has to take place,I know from experience,I also know one has to have something to replace it!,or else it is dangerous to the mind.I fairly sure in the Bible,for example there is a verse that says something to the effect of, " Look around all around,the trees,the woods,all of life,the rocks,the earth all of all,,That is Me,,,"Nature"..the "Purest Form"..like Simone Weil tries to explain in Gravity and Grace,,the Void must be created,in order to allow "God" to enter one's being.

    Links on Closed Poly Triad relationships,Male,Female,Fem-male are difficult to impossible to find,yet are few sites on Poly