Why do We Like,What We Like

I Love Wood,when I see a piece of wood,I see a Life,I often wonder where did it grow,in it's branchs,did animals set,the leaves it held,how old was it.on ,on my thoughts can go!

With a Plastic thing,I never see Life! -with in it

  What are we naturally attracted to?,Why is our Favorite Color,what it is?,Why is One attracted to another person,place or                    being,thing in the way,in what intensity?

       What do being "Inspired" mean verse, say a "need", or just "Want"

For example,when posing nude,I always like posing for female artists more so then males,not because I looking for a date,or any sexual motivations,I always tried  projecting .Look at Me,just as a Human being. I think because I am so Feminine internally,I feel more comfortable being with females while nude.(I relate to being like them as female) .  I have wondered at times how a female feels while posing for a group of male photographers,do they feel they are being viewed by many, in a sexual context ? 

For myself ,a similar situation might be posing for a group of black males,whom know I am a fem-male,with a history of dating black men,then how would I feel?,would be able to not get sexually excited?and just be professional,would I flirt with them ?, even in my mind, wishing one of them might want to ask me for a date?.

Then which one of the men might I most be Attracted to?,will it be physical appearance first ?,then if there is one of the guys,that shows signs of sincere interest in me,is kind,without Ego,when will physical attractiveness's importance dissolve?

I know I will not be sexual attracted to any of the Females,yet which will I be attracted to in terms of "Friend-ship" ,wish to be in "Company of",will it be physical appearance first?,will it be very similar to the Males in the above scenario, yet my desire is "inspiration" and " to be in the Company of"

      For example I have always wished to be a female Artist's live in artist's model/companion,(non- sexual ). Yet if I where a Male artist's  model/companion, I would have to like them very well,and my offer myself to them sexually ,yet only as Fem-male,(they would have to see me as female,or in traditional female role.(I can't sexually be with a male whom wishs the female role)

I can relate to "Animism and Projecting" in many ways- especially in the regards of how the Artist must try to see the Model ,simply as a "Being" and not project "preconceived notions" onto the model "free their mind of thought"

Just as we Look at a Human being,any Animal,plant ,creature,rain drop,rainbow,-See it's Life- try to see it without a "Name attached",as that is" Man-Made",imagine you need to gather of what you see, "It's very Essense",where did it come from,how was it created,and Form,it's character. Make a " Name " of it for yourself,forget about what someone has maybe told you of what your seeing,"See it For yourself"-me 6/29/2018  -this is difficult,yet can be done,and is the door to the Highest Spiritual development,in my view.And the Key to overcoming "Pre-Concieved Notions"

The Art we chose,desire helps us understand ourselves,if we allow it.

For example I have always been drawn to the "Hermaphrodite" such as Hermaphroditus.

HERMAPHRODITOS (Hermaphroditus) was the god of hermaphrodites and of effeminates. He was numbered amongst the winged love-gods known as Erotes.
Hermaphroditos was a son of Hermes and Aphrodite, the gods of male and female sexuality.