Putting my Sexual Orientation aside, by far not being able to just be me, go out in Public looking as I really am,dressing as in the photo above, wearing a dress, having a flower in my hair ,etc, and Not have to worry about the Consequences of just Living.
I have great ; need/want to have vagina,breasts and be impregnated by a male. "wanta be MtF transsexual"
How can a Society reach the Point, " When being Transgender is simply just another variation of being human, Yet Ok ?"
After a Life Time Struggle of being Transgender- Thinking some thing very Wrong with me, I realize now, it's not Me-
It's a Major Societal Problem !
I like the quote from Albert Einsteins book " Ideas and Opinions" - " Only the individual can think, and thereby create new values for society , nay, even set up new moral standards to which the life of the community conforms. Without creative personalities able to think and judge independently, the upward development of society is as unthinkable as the development of the individual personality without the nourishing soil of the Community. "
Why is it so called Primitive cultures adapted long ago to accept Transgender type people, yet we have not? and if we can't adapt to such a non-threatening aspect of human difference, what else can't we adapt too ?, thats the really scary part!
To be called mentally ill by - Institutions, such as Religions, American Psychological Association
On Saturday, the American Psychiatric Association’s board of trustees approved changes to the latest version of The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-V) that will remove the term “Gender Identity Disorder” (GID) which has historically been used by mental health professionals to diagnose transgender individuals. Simultaneously, the term “Gender Dysphoria” will be used to describe emotional distress over “a marked incongruence between one’s experienced/expressed gender and assigned gender.”
have thought to myself a lot. ; " Why is my brain , more like a female's / girl's ? ",....." why does by having a man's penis in me, make me feel so complete, so feminine ?". ............ " Why do I have such a strong need to feel Feminine ?
I think for myself "gender dysphoria is like a "double edge sword", first I have the overwhelming urge to be in my role of feminine male and be mounted and breed by a male, yet once it really happened, even though it feels so right, the shame comes with being a failure of being a "Man", you see yourself as you imagine you think society will,,a faggot,homo,sissy etc.
Then comes cognitive dissonance. guilt,etc
A life Time learning to Accept having a " Penis "
As much as I have always felt I should have a female like body, my only alternatives I think have been to wear tube tops, padded, wear garters,thigh-highs,leg warmer, shavimg smooth, when I pose for Art, I think I naturally pose in feminine style ways.
As far as meeting men for sex, I have simply told them ," I always have felt I should be female ", " I imagine I am female when their penis is up in my bottom, in my mouth "
The Envy Factor
Aristotle defined envy as pain at the sight of another’s good fortune, stirred by;
“those who have what we ought to have.”
Psychologists have recently suggested that there are two types of envy: malicious envy and benign envy—malicious envy being proposed as a sick force that ruins a person and his/her mind and causes the envious person to blindly want the "hero" to suffer; on the other hand, benign envy being proposed as a type of positive motivational force that causes the person to aspire to be as good as the "hero"—but only if benign envy is used in a right way. However, Sherry Turkle considers that the advent of social media and selfie culture is creating an alienating sense of “self-envy” psyche in users, and posits this further affects problem areas attached to attachments. Envy and gloating have parallel structures as emotions.
The only type of envy that can have positive effects also is benign envy. According to researchers, benign envy can provide emulation, improvement motivation, positive thoughts about the other person, and admiration.This type of envy, if dealt with correctly, can positively affect a persons future by motivating them to be a better person and to succeed. Our human instinct is to avoid negative aspects in life such as the negative emotion, envy. However, it is possible to turn this negative emotional state into a motivational tool that can help a person to become successful in the future.
For myself ; " Because I have always wanted to be much more in female role socially and sexually, having a vagina is very symbolic, very defining in saying " I want to be in Female Role "
Constantly wanting to be a another males "girl friend",→ not wanting to be a girls "boy-friend" - try to imagine That-
I do believe, to Study "Gender Dysphoria", a starting point is studying " Cognitive Dissonance"
For my self "Gender Dysphoria" is simply "Cognitive dissonance" specific to sexual identity.
I think also knowing that I can't be female, yet since as long as I can remember " Wished to be Female " it will never happen. Thus leading a life of pretending, not really able to be open about my sexual orientation, for example not only wanting to be female for a man, yet being a male, how can I have sex with a non-homosexual man ,then convey to him I look male,yet inside I want to be female, thus I had to ask my male sexual partners to " pretend " as well. Maintaining Reality can be , a thing that must be juggled, in essense I am asking another to join me in a "role play" - "See me as a female,mate with me as a female,as I wish I where a female "
I very much wish I looked as the photo above; as much for my identity comformation when I look in mirror, as well as much for my male sexual partner's ability to see me as a completely feminine person sexually, hopefully enhancing his ability to at least see me as a transgender feminine person, whom wants sex as though I am really a female, I don't wish to be seen as female in body,as I can't be yet I can please a man sexually, as I fulfill my want/desire to be as a female can be".
I think most people can relate to being a " Wanta Be ". Mine is simply " Wanta be like a Female"
I want to mention here as well ; "There are heterosexual men whom are empathtic toward fem-males like myself " as well as empathtic spouses and girfriends of these men. I know because I had so many men whom where married or had girlfriends, where they knew that their man was routinely either getting a blow-job by me, or they where boning me, we all looked at it as they came to me so my desire was met, as well as I could please them sexually. Open and honest,the ladies didn't see it as cheating on them, they knew I wasn't going to steal their man from them. They knew I was a wanta be female, that I didn't want to male, that I was not going have their man do homosexual things like sucking my cock or me boning their man (I have no desire for either/ I can't be in the male role, you might say it's against my religion!).
I also believe society might be quite amazed to as how many so called heterosexual married males / with consenting spouses would enter into a poly-triad relationship as I write of in " Terrace ". as well as the " Indigo club " idea.
It's called Evolution, least for myself
" I am quite sure I enjoy having a cock up inside me as much as any Lady."
From Anatomical body stand point
I have or can recall only back to age 7 or 8 when starting to secretly starting to wear my mom's panty hose a lot, I remember looking at National Geographic magazine, and if there where say African tribes, where nude women of tribe where portrayed , a strong desire to look like they looked without a penis
Imagine the mental conflict of being a "Male biologically",yet feeling as though your in the wrong body,you want to be like the "girls",something went wrong at birth!.Society will call you a freak!,if you act like a girl,want to be like a girl. Yet in your mind,no matter how hard you try to be boy-like, you know it is simply a ACT,in order to fit Societies Expections.Your whole Life is a Act!,never getting to be the person you wish you are- This is what being Trans-gender,Third-gender etc, was like growing up in America from the 1960's to present, for myself.
A grand Paradox of sorts, knowing you desire to be in the Role of a Female, yet have the body of a male.
Excerpt from ; When You Don't Feel at Home With Your Gender
" People who have gender dysphoria feel strongly that their gender does not match their biology.
For example, a person who has a penis and all other physical traits of a male might feel instead that he is actually a female. That person would have an intense desire to have a female body and to be accepted by others as a female. Or someone with the physical characteristics of a female would feel her true identity is male." ( I think the above " be accepted by others as a female." has to be very much defined and as is written is to broad a statement, for example .number one is self acceptance comes first, then no one is should be expected to " Accept Me as Female ", that would be asking another to be delusional , I can hope others may accept that I wish to appear Female like in certain ways.
In my opinion I can't ever say " I am Female " , yet I can say, I have always wished I had a vagina, and not a penis, wished I had breasts, and love to be sexual treated like a female by a male, yet I can't expect a male to see me as anything other then " a male that wishs to be in female role " , ever if I had the vaginoplasty surgery, thus a functioning vagina and breast implants, I still am biologically a male, that wants to be like a Lady.
What happens to a person's private opinion if he is forced to do or say something contrary to that opinion?
I do believe for myself- Cognitive Dissonance and Gender Dysphoria- was my "Internal Battle ground" ,I un-knowingly was fighting, which lead to my "Alcoholism"
♠ If one stands back and looks at the Two terms "Cognitive Dissonance and Gender Dysphoria",they are the Same
♠ Gender dysphoria (GD), or gender identity disorder (GID), is the distress a person experiences as a result of the sex and gender they were assigned at birth.- "a internal mental conflict" mental stress due to conflicting ideas
|Synonyms||Gender identity disorder|
|Specialty||Psychiatry, Psychology, Psychotherapy|
|Symptoms||Distress related to one's assigned gender or sex|
|Complications||Eating disorders, suicide, depression, anxiety, social isolation|
|Differential diagnosis||Variance in gender identity or expression that isn't distressing|
|Medication||Hormones (e.g., androgens, antiandrogens, estrogens)|
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Social constructionism or the social construction of reality (also social concept) is a theory of knowledge in sociology and communication theory that examines the development of jointly constructed understandings of the world that form the basis for shared assumptions about reality. The theory centers on the notions that human beings rationalize their experience by creating models of the social world and share and reify these models through language.
Social constructionism questions what is defined by humans and society to be reality. Therefore, social constructs can be different based on the society and the events surrounding the time period in which they exists. An example of a social construct is money or the concept of currency, as people in society have agreed to give it importance/ value. Another example of a social construction is the concept of self/ self-identity. Charles Cooley stated based on his Looking-Glass-Self theory: "I am not who you think I am; I am not who I think I am; I am who I think you think I am." This demonstrates how people in society construct ideas or concepts that may not exist without the existence of people or language to validate those concepts.
"The Muse is to sought out,maybe imagined,yet never to be touched,only seen in our Dreams"-me
Gender bending is a more recent version and vision of transgenderism, and k.d. lang is one of its more complex proponents. “Gender bending has always been tang’s stock-in- trade . . . hers is a deeply subversive presence; after you watch her for a while you realize how warped your own stereotypes are.”34 The gender bending that k.d. projects is definitely not the same as most male transgenderists who depend on surgery, hormones, passing as women, or mimicking women on stage. Hers is a more dimensioned, savvy, and feminist self-assertion that does not reduce gender bending to the flaunting of sexuality, k la Madonna, but expands it to point out the limits imposed upon both female gender and sexuality. However, there is a mixed message in her gender- bending portrayals. Featured in a photo spread in the August, 1993 issue of Vanity Fair, k.d. lang does not define herself as a transgen- derist but, instead, prides herself “on being 100 percent woman.”38 There is much in the article that any feminist can identify with: k.d.’s incredible talent and her rise up the professional ladder, defying any attempts to make her more feminine and thus palatable to audiences; the kind of physical freedom with which she moves on stage, so unlike any other female singer; the clothing she wears that doesn’t objectify or exploit her body; her refusal to engage in performances featuring her as a “heterosexual fantasy object”; her defense of animal rights and vegetarianism; her presentation of herself as her self, never hiding her lesbianism or denying lesbian rumors, culminating in her public “coming out.” “She takes everything a woman is not supposed to be—big, funny, fearlessly defiant, physically powerful—and makes it not only O.K. but glorious.”- excerpt from "Transsexual Empire"-5/26/ 2018
I very much recommend reading,"The Transsexual Empire" by JANICE G. RAYMONDyou can read it at below site:
In my opinion "We must start educating that "Gender Fluidity" is natural,as been in Human history from beginning of Time! ,that it isn't bad,it is reality.or else through "social construct",we shall continue to create,social injustice,thus different forms of crimes,all crimes start at a root form of dysphoria,cognitive dissonance,oppression to a certain degree in my opinion
This is cognition based on norms, rules, procedures, examples, instances, habits, and stereotypes. Typically these are derived from some sort of external authority or society as a whole. This form of cognition is only reliable in environments where the rules, procedures, etc, are actually effective. And even while they are effective, they allows for many inconsistencies and as such to potentially suboptimal behavior with adverse long term consequences. Authoritarian self-confidence is therefore a function of whether or not the shallow cognitive capabilities match environmental demands, which explains why authoritarians go to such great lengths to help authorities to maintain the conditions in which they feel adequate and confident. 
This refers back to the [coping mode of thought] in which success is measured in terms of the restoration or protection of feelings of agentic adequacy. The Associated strategy is to remove all sources of uncontrolled and not understood diversity that frustrate the maintenance or restoration of agentic adequacy.
Gender dysphoria occurs when there is a persistent sense of mismatch between one’s experienced gender and assigned gender.
Gender dysphoria (formerly gender identity disorder) is defined by strong, persistent feelings of identification with the opposite gender and discomfort with one's own assigned sex that results in significant distress or impairment. People with gender dysphoria desire to live as members of the opposite sex and often dress and use mannerisms associated with the other gender. For instance, a person identified as a boy may feel and act like a girl. This incongruence causes significant distress, and this distress is not limited to a desire to simply be of the other gender, but may include a desire to be of an alternative gender.
Gender dysphoria has been reported across many countries and cultures. Among individuals who are assigned male gender at birth, approximately 0.005 percent to 0.014 percent are diagnosed with gender dysphoria. Among individuals who are assigned female gender at birth, approximately 0.002 percent to 0.003 percent are diagnosed with gender dysphoria. Because these estimates are based on the number of people who seek treatment, including hormone treatment and surgical reassignment, these rates are likely an underestimate of the real prevalence rates.
Adolescents and Adults
The later-onset group:
Expert Q & A: Gender Dysphoria / psychiatry.org
What is the difference between transgender and transsexual?
Transgender is a non-medical term that has been used increasingly since the 1990s as an umbrella term describing individuals whose gender identity (inner sense of gender) or gender expression (outward performance of gender) differs from the sex or gender to which they were assigned at birth. Some people who use this term do not consider themselves as matching a binary gender category. In addition, new terms such as genderqueer, bigendered, and agendered are increasingly in use.
Transsexual is a historic, medical term that refers to individuals who have undergone some form of medical and/or surgical treatment for gender reassignment (historically referred to as sex reassignment). Some transsexual individuals may identify as transgender, although others primarily identify as the male or female gender to which they have transitioned.
People who identify as transgender but who do not seek medical or surgical treatment are not transsexual.
Is there a general age that people realize they are transgender or experience gender dysphoria? Can it happen late in life?
Not all transgender people suffer from gender dysphoria and that distinction is important to keep in mind. Gender dysphoria and/or coming out as transgender can occur at any age.
The DSM-5* distinguishes between Gender Dysphoria in Childhood for those who experience GD before puberty. The diagnosis of Gender Dysphoria in Adolescents and Adults can occur at any age. For those who experience gender dysphoria later in life, they often report having secretly hidden their gender dysphoric feelings from others when they were younger.
How does hormone therapy affect a person’s emotional state? (From WPATH SOC)
Many transgender people who take feminizing or masculinizing hormones report improvement of emotions as their gender dysphoria lessens or resolves. A person transitioning from male to female (MTF, transwoman) takes feminizing hormones that may reduce libido. A person transitioning from female to male (FTM, transman) takes masculinizing hormones that may increase libido. Less commonly, masculinizing hormones may provoke hypomanic, manic, or psychotic symptoms in patients who have an underlying psychiatric disorder that include such symptoms. This adverse event appears to be associated with higher doses or greater than average blood levels of testosterone.
As with any medical treatment, the anticipated risks and benefits should be considered by a patient and prescribing doctor on an individual basis
How can a person deal with gender dysphoria without gender reassignment?
Not all individuals with gender dysphoria choose to undergo gender reassignment. For one, gender reassignment that includes surgery is very expensive and usually not covered by most insurance. Nor do all individuals with gender dysphoria desire a complete gender reassignment. Some are satisfied with taking hormones alone. Some are satisfied with no medical or surgical treatment but prefer to dress as the felt gender in public. Some people make use of Trans affirming social networks online and in local supportive communities to cope with gender dysphoria and claim a gender identity and forms of expression that do not require medical treatments. Some individuals choose to express their felt gender in private settings only because they are either uncomfortable or fearful of publicly expressing their felt gender. However some people who are denied or have no access to gender reassignment treatments can become anxious, depressed, socially withdrawn and suicidal.
If a man likes to dress in women’s clothes but does not want to be a woman and otherwise lives typically as a male, does he have a psychiatric disorder?
No. Such a desire is called transvestitism and it is not a psychiatric disorder. DSM-5 does have a diagnosis of Transvestic Disorder that specifically states it “does not apply to all individuals who dress as the opposite sex, even those who do so habitually.” It is only considered a disorder if “cross-dressing or thoughts of cross-dressing are always or often accompanied by sexual excitement.”
Like myself,I could be called " Bigender ",yet always I wish to be be in role of "female"(traditional) sexually
My advice: as it is some what on Topic here
Avoid the Femdom,cuckolding idea's so many seem to have.In my opinion it is mostly distorted views of reality.
THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GENDER NONCONFORMITY AND GENDER DYSPHORIA
Being Transsexual, Transgender, or Gender Nonconforming Is a Matter of Diversity, Not Pathology WPATH released a statement in May 2010 urging the de-psychopathologization of gender nonconformity worldwide (WPATH Board of Directors, 2010). This statement noted that “the expression of gender characteristics, including identities, that are not stereotypically associated with one’s assigned sex at birth is a common andculturallydiversehumanphenomenon[that] should not be judged as inherently pathological or negative.” Unfortunately, there is a stigma attached to gender nonconformity in many societies around the world. Such stigma can lead to prejudice anddiscrimination,resultingin“minoritystress” (I. H. Meyer, 2003). Minority stress is unique (additive to general stressors experienced by all people), socially based, and chronic, and may make transsexual, transgender, and gendernonconforming individuals more vulnerable to developing mental health problems such as anxiety and depression (Institute of Medicine, 2011). In addition to prejudice and discrimination in society at large, stigma can contribute to abuse and neglect in one’s relationships with peers and family members, which in turn can lead to psychological distress. However, these symptoms are socially induced and are not inherent to being transsexual, transgender, or gender-nonconforming.
Gender Nonconformity Is Not the Same as Gender Dysphoria Gender nonconformity refers to the extent to which a person’s gender identity, role, or expression differs from the cultural norms prescribedforpeopleofaparticularsex(Institute
of Medicine, 2011). Gender dysphoria refers to discomfortordistressthatiscausedbyadiscrepancybetweenaperson’sgenderidentityandthat person’ssexassignedatbirth(andtheassociated gender role and/or primary and secondary sex characteristics) (Fisk, 1974; Knudson, De Cuypere, & Bockting, 2010b). Only some gender-nonconforming people experience gender dysphoria at some point in their lives. Treatment is available to assist people with such distress to explore their gender identity and ﬁnd a gender role that is comfortable for them(Bockting&Goldberg,2006).Treatmentis individualized: What helps one person alleviate gender dysphoria might be very different from what helps another person. This process may or may not involve a change in gender expression or body modiﬁcations. Medical treatment options include, for example, feminization or masculinization of the body through hormone therapy and/or surgery, which are effective in alleviating gender dysphoria and are medically necessary for many people. Gender identities and expressions are diverse, and hormones and surgery are just two of many options available toassistpeoplewithachievingcomfortwithself and identity.
Gender dysphoria can in large part be alleviated through treatment (Murad et al., 2010). Hence, while transsexual, transgender, and gender-nonconforming people may experience gender dysphoria at some points in their lives, manyindividuals who receivetreatmentwillﬁnd a gender role and expression that is comfortable for them, even if these differ from those associated with their sex assigned at birth, or from prevailing gender norms and expectations.
Options for Social Support and Changes in Gender Expression In addition (or as an alternative) to the psychological- and medical-treatment options describedabove,otheroptionscanbeconsidered to help alleviate gender dysphoria, for example: • In person and online peer support resources, groups, or community organizations that provide avenues for social support and advocacy; • In person and online support resources for families and friends; • Voice and communication therapy to help individuals develop verbal and nonverbal communication skills that facilitate comfort with their gender identity; • Hair removal through electrolysis, laser treatment, or waxing; • Breast binding or padding, genital tucking or penile prostheses, padding of hips or buttocks; • Changes in name and gender marker on identity documents.
Criteria for Hormone Therapy
Initiation of hormone therapy may be undertaken after a psychosocial assessment has been conducted and informed consent has been obtained by a qualiﬁed health professional, as outlined in section VII of the SOC. A referral is required from the mental health professional who performed the assessment, unless the assessment was done by a hormone provider who is also qualiﬁed in this area. The criteria for hormone therapy are as follows:
1. Persistent, well-documented gender dysphoria; 2. Capacitytomakeafullyinformeddecision and to consent for treatment; 3. Age of majority in a given country (if younger, follow the SOC outlined in section VI); 4. Ifsigniﬁcantmedicalormentalhealthconcerns are present, they must be reasonably well-controlled.
Physical Effects of Hormone Therapy
Feminizing/masculinizing hormone therapy will induce physical changes that are more congruent with a patient’s gender identity.
• In FtM patients, the following physical changes are expected to occur: deepened voice,clitoral enlargement(variable), growth in facial and body hair, cessation of menses, atrophy of breast tissue, and decreased percentage of body fat compared to muscle mass. • In MtF patients, the following physical changes are expected to occur: breast growth (variable), decreased erectile function, decreased testicular size, and increased percentage of body fat compared to muscle mass.
Most physical changes, whether feminizing or masculinizing, occur over the course of two years. The amount of physical change and the exact timeline of effects can be highly variable. Tables 1a and 1b outline the approximate time course of these physical changes
Risks of Hormone Therapy
All medical interventions carry risks. The likelihood of a serious adverse event is dependent on numerous factors: the medication itself, dose, route of administration, and a patient’s clinicalcharacteristics(age,comorbidities,family history, health habits). It is thus impossible to predict whether a given adverse effect will happen in an individual patient.
The risks associated with feminizing/ masculinizing hormone therapy for the transsexual, transgender, and gender-nonconforming population as a whole are summarized in Table 2. Based on the level of evidence, risks are
categorized as follows: (i) likely increased risk with hormone therapy, (ii) possibly increased risk with hormone therapy, or (iii) inconclusive or no increased risk. Items in the last category include those that may present risk but for which the evidence is so minimal that no clear conclusion can be reached. Additional detail about these risks can be found in Appendix B, which is based on two comprehensive, evidence-based literature reviews of masculinizing/feminizing hormone therapy (Feldman & Safer, 2009; Hembree et al., 2009), along with a large cohort study (Asscheman et al., 2011). These reviews can serve as detailed references for providers, along withotherwidelyrecognized,publishedclinical materials (Dahl, Feldman, Goldberg, & Jaberi, 2006; Ettner, Monstrey, & Eyler, 2007).- INTERNATIONAL JOURNAL OF TRANSGENDERISM
For myself,if I was 30 again I would like do the Hormone therapyand try to appear to the degree "Fem" as Natalie Mars who is coined-"Shemale" in the adult film industry. Yet for myself I dont wish to have a penis
What might Objectives or Growth be if people like myself-" whom sexually identify as person whom wishs to be in the "Female Role"
Excerpt from: "Homosexual Orientation in Males"
The minds of scientists, and the questions they ask, are shaped by the cultures in which they live. Contemporary Western culture has been shaped by Judeo-Christian beliefs, foremost among which has been that the purpose of sex is procreation. This driving assumption is the reason that, historically, the study of the cause of homosexuality has generated such a preponderance of research in the area of human sexuality . Twentieth century advances in research technology have not altered the underlying assumption. Thus, sophisticated methods for identifying and measuring hormones and genes are still used to try to answer the question what causes homosexuality? There are also more nefarious implications to this search because the identiﬁ cation of a cause implies the existence of an intervention, which will allow successful elimination of the behavior. Thus, the scientiﬁ c quest for the cause of homosexuality continues to have compelling implications for those men and women whose sexual orientation has been deemed by society as requiring explanation. Even evolutionary psychology, which promised different insights into human nature, relied heavily upon unquestioned assumptions about homosexual behavior .
Past evolutionary theories tried to explain how homosexual behavior was either maladaptive or a biologically irrelevant by-product of the plasticity of the human brain. A recently emerging view in evolutionary psychology is that some homosexual behavior was adaptive during the course of human evolution, and there was selection for it. However, there appear to be two major perspectives regarding this. One emphasizes that homosexual behavior itself reinforced same-sex alliances, which contributed directly to survival and indirectly to reproduction [5, 26, 29]. These theorists fail to explain underlying genetic and neuroendocrine mechanisms regulating the behavior. The other perspective also holds that homosexual behavior may have been adaptive. It tries to explain the possibility of a neuroendocrine basis by emphasizing the feminization of the male brain, especially the brains associated with a homosexual orientation [25, 44]. At this time, it is unclear if this is a productive theoretical framework or if it is excessively burdened with the cultural and continuing scientiﬁc stereotype that men with a homosexual orientation are somehow less masculine and more feminine than heterosexual men.
Research in neuroendocrinology strongly suggests that prenatal, and perhaps some postnatal, hormonal effects may shape the development of sexual orientation (e.g., ). Although the evidence indicating trends is clear, research trying to show persistent differences between heterosexual and homosexual men has been inconsistent . It is possible that this research is also burdened by the cultural stereotype that a homosexual orientation in men can be clearly equated to femininity. It appears that the thrust of the neuroendocrine research has been to show that men with a homosexual orientation exhibit hormonal and neuroendocrine functioning more similar to that of women than to that of men.
Clearly, a single theoretical model cannot explain a phenomenon as complex as human sexual orientation. We present an integrated model. Increasing evidence suggests that there may have been adaptive value for some homosexual behavior under certain conditions during human evolution. This is why genes for the behavior remain in the population. Neuroendocrine and hormonal factors are undoubtedly involved in homosexual behavior since they are involved in many aspects of sexual behavior for most species. We entertain the possibility that in our evolutionary past there was selection for more ‘feminine’ and thus bisexual traits in males. However, it is not yet clear that this is the best explanation. For example, Ross and Wells  speculate that homosociality was a pre-adaptation for homosexuality, and Kirkpatrick  theorizes that selection was for reciprocal altruism. These approaches do not require a statement on the selection of feminine traits for the interpretation of human sexual orientation.
Homosexual behavior may represent a form of sexual ﬂ exibility not unlike the behavioral scaling exhibited in many behaviors by many species . For example, during the mating season male sea lions cannot tolerate each other and ﬁ ght ferociously. After the mating season, they loll together quite affectionately on the beach. Similarly, roaming pairs of adult male lions are formidably aggressive, but also known to engage in frequent homosexual behavior with each other . The behavior of these animals is not explained in terms of excessive feminization but rather simple behavioral scaling. Accordingly, human males may have evolved to exhibit some degree of bisexual behavior under certain conditions. The predominantly homosexual orientation exhibited by a very small percentage of men may be due to a greater genetic predisposition, the result of genetic variation, in conjunction with social and cultural factors that allow its manifestation.
The inconsistencies found in the neuroendocrine research may be due the fact that the research is based on a faulty assumption: sexual orientation is reliably dichotomous. Genetically based characteristics tend to be continuous , thus the expression of genetically mediated homosexual behavior could similarly be expected to be continuous. The measures of sexual orientation reﬂ ecting a bimodal distribution of heterosexual/homosexual, at least in Western countries, may not accurately reﬂ ect actual genotypic variation and its accompanying neuroendocrine variation.
Most studies use volunteers self-labeled as ‘homosexual’ and ‘heterosexual’. There are strong countervailing social pressures associated with an open acknowledgement of a homosexual orientation. Thus, it is reasonable to speculate that the homosexual group is stringently self-selected and reliably homosexual in psychology and the neuroendocrinology, which underlies this. However, assuming that the genotype for homosexual behavior is continuous, there is arguably much more variation in the heterosexual group. Much of the variation in overt sexual behavior that could be generated by the corresponding genotypic variation is only likely to be seen under environmental conditions more conducive to homosexual behavior. This may explain the universally high rate of homosexual behavior in self-identiﬁed heterosexual males with limited access to opposite sex partners (cf., ).
A change in the scientiﬁc paradigm and the assumptions which guide the search for the cause of homosexual behavior and orientation in humans may allow a better understanding of human sexual orientation in general. Bancroft  has stated “….it soon becomes apparent that many of our widely held assumptions about the origins of homosexuality are a product of our social values rather than an objective appraisal of the evidence” (p. 300). Homosexual orientation is no longer considered a psychopathology by psychiatry and psychology, and society has become increasingly tolerant and accepting of those with a homosexual orientation . Future researchers, shaped by a more tolerant society, may ask different questions about the origins of homosexuality and ﬁ nd unexpected answers.
Gender Identity Disorder is the CURRENT medical psychological classification for anyone who has behaviors or self-identification that is inconsistent with their apparent physical sex.
One of the hardest concepts for many people to comprehend is that "sex" and "gender" are distinct and seperate. For the majority of humanity individual gender identity and behavior is synchronous with apparent physical sex. A more simplistic way to put it is that "sex is between the legs; gender is between the ears." For the individual with Gender Identity Disorder physical sex and psychological sex (i.e., "gender") are in some degree of conflict. Because this often leads to peripheral psychological disturbances and a general unhappiness with one's life, this condition is sometimes alternatively referred to as "Gender Dysphoria." Dysphoria being the polar opposite of "euphoria."
Despite the inclusion of gender disorders in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Illness (DSM-IV) and it's counterpart International Classification of Diseases (ICD-10), these problems are rather confusingly NOT considered "mental illnesses" by the medical community. It should also be noted that the publisher of the DSM has not explained why gender disorders fail to meet their own definition of "social non-conformity." (This debate will b discussed in more detail under the conflicting views section).
Another thing that is hard for people to grasp is that the following sub-classifications are NOT a progression of intensity from one disorder to another. Some people misunderstand this and think that crossdressing is simply a lesser form of transsexuality, or that someone who crossdresses will eventually want to undergo sex reassignment surgery. This is NOT the case! Transvesticism is a completely different psychological issue from Transsexuality and if they didn't both start with "trans" or both usually involve people wearing clothing normally not associated with their birth sex, they wouldn't and shouldn't be discussed together at all, much less be seen as different intensitites of the same condition.
Any intelligent person can soon see the terrible Dangers of Social Construct,in it's sutle demeaning ways,how a society easily accepts things as the "Norm", how it turns a society "Sick".
In addition, however, the displacement effect was larger when the choice was made from the larger number of alternatives. This is so, according to dissonance theory, because "the greater the number of alternatives from which one must choose, the more one must give up and consequently the greater the magnitude of dissonance
I would recommend listening to Emerald in the below video, about understanding the balance between Feminine and Masculine traits
I put the following audio here because for myself, - even though I don't look like I wish I was as in the photo's or video's of myself with vagina and breasts I still can visualize, part-time act out looking such. and practice "Negative Visualization" as the audio begins with - Stoicism↓
So for myself, a big part of " gender dysphoria " is having a penis, yet feeling should have a female like vagina
Hermaphroditus , I've always felt as though this portrayed myself or had a kinship to Hermaphroditus, I have always wondered how this myth came to be created ?, As well as " Why was the myth of Tiresias created ?
After all my research into the " gender comfirmations surgery " ways..it isn't a reality that is worth seeking, a want sure, yet somethings we just can't have.....thus being a " Berdache ", my real first concrete " Idea of self " that fit me, then " Transfeminine "
For example Domino Presley in the above photo's of before and after breast implants, still Domino still appears very Transfeminine in both...the implants still are fake, just as in my padded tube-top above
Believe me, I love imagining my self like photo below ↓ ,yet the simple " Berdache " idea of the Native American tribes, in that the Berdache took female role, and dressed female like to reflect their role,status seems a obtainable reality.
6/22/2019 My idea of a " Modern day Berdache "
The sad part about this above video is the Need for the title to include the word " Secret ", that in itself tells a lot about the ;
" State of our Society as a Whole ", this is where the real problem lays.
I truly believe now ; Only when a male can go out in public dressed similar to the above photo, when there is No attempt to pass at being Female, can anything really change....I think that defines best " I yes am male, yet very Feminine in my mind ". '......………...…….................................................................................So just wear a Dress...…............………………...………………...………...……..
I am not that brave, Yet that is what it is going to take...….Many males just going to work,going to store, everyday;...……………........................…………............……………. life wearing a dress!......…............………...…...…...…...……...…...…...………..
excerpt from above site ;
Note on “Berdache” and Western Colonization Efforts: “Berdache” was a term given by the French during North American colonization for folks born male and given traditional female dress and roles along with (in some traditions) spiritual and shaman related properties and abilities. However, this term has been used offensively and extraneously since its origin in France and was later popularized by the field of anthropology. However, many indigenous folks have claimed the term two-spirit in lieu of this term and prefer this.
Most depictions that exist of two-spirit individuals in recorded history are from westernized colonization efforts and research such as Catlin’s. Note that his experiences through writing, art, and recordings of these individuals can be demeaning and untrue to the traditions of the Sac and Fox Nation’s two-spirit individuals.
“This is one of the most unaccountable and disgusting customs, that I have ever met in the Indian country, and so far as I have been able to learn, belongs only to the Sioux and Sacs and Foxes— perhaps it is practiced by other tribes, but I did not meet with it; and for further account of it I am constrained to refer the reader to the country where it is practiced, and where I should wish that it might be extinguished before it be more fully recorded.” (Catlin 214)
Who was George Catlin, to condemn peoples as he did ?...thats how Wars can start !
Take Away morals, right and wrong for a moment, and apply " Free Will only toward "Thought", "desire to "
Example of Free Will in regards to My dilemma of being a " Female Roled male ", for what ever reason,
I have no control over the Fact ; " that my identity is " Female Roled male ",
After a life time of trying to " Change " to a Male roled male in traditional sense,
My mind's " Free will " , Where is it,What is ?
I think for myself , the following can be applied to myself ;
"One may do what he wants, but he cannot control what it is that he wants"
For example ; If I see a certain male , that I am attracted, I have no control over the,
Thought, of→ " I really want him to impregnate me anally "- breed with me
Yet I can decide will I actually do it.
If I have decided → " I really will try to get him to "Fuck me ",
Now the thoughts
"Human Ethics, methods of attracting"
How can I get this man to see that I am a " Female Roled male " desiring to be impregnated ?
How can I convey to this man that I am what I say I am, that in a honest,safe ,kind,caring way,
If he does give me his Attention , and impregnate me,
I will do best of my ability to have it the encounter be positive.
For example ; If I did actually ask a man to be with me sexually,
I made it perfectly clear that I was 100% female roled,
That I was attracted to him because I wanted him to ,
Fuck me, and ejaculate up in my bottom
un-protected,no condom, as I wanted his semen in me,
Thus I always asked →"are you safe, hiv neg, std's free ?",
"I my self got tested very often, and to best of my ability, I was",
I personally would tell a man if we are to actually meet,
1. we will talk awhile, if both agree, to go further
2. You can get your cock out, I'll masturbate you for awhile
( I figured ,gives more time to talk,get signals of is this going well)
3. If things didn't seem right, we could both, end the encounter
or I might simply masturbate him to ejaculation.
4. If he asked me to start sucking, I either did or told him;
"maybe next time, if I didn't feel that good about the encounter"
5. If I felt ok, I would go ahead and give him a " blow-job ",
Though nearly always I would completely swallow all his cum, when
he finally ejaculated, I still could decide if to Do, or not Do.
6. If after this encounter, I liked his cum ,I would ask him if he would
Fuck me next time, a invite. He may say yes, or he'd think about it,
or say he way contend just having me suck him, and swallow.
Which many men, simply liked me to simply "suck and swallow "
7. If a man did start fucking me, to myself this is where a great "bond"
formed, he had "taken me", thus I was in away his "girly-boy friend",
Once a man has ejaculated up inside me,
1. It's very symbolic, in that " I am his,and committed to sexual satisfy him ",
So, now only question is " How often can we get together, in what content/context ? "
2. Here though is the ; dilemma of being a female roled male whom wants a Straight male
3. I would be likely be " Wanting him to be a full time partner " → "Go steady with me "
many men often asked me if I would only see them at this point ,
(once they started ejaculating in my bottom)
Yet if I asked would they " commit to only fucking me, not ladies " or if I asked can you fuck me daily ?
As then and even now (though celibate), I want fucked or to suck cock at least once a day or setting
where it would be possible. Where living with partner would
4. If a man has been fucking me routinely for some time, I often wanted to be in the role of wife for Him.
Then to the Huge Dilemma of will he like it if I dress Female like in Public
I would very much like to dress like I feel, even really have the surgery to have have my penis removed, and have breasts
Believe me, when I get undressed for a man I want to appear similar to her, or in same " content ",
As far as publicly, sure I want to be known to be sexually female roled,
1. I don't want men hitting on me, whom want someone with a penis.
2. I don't want women being attracted to me,thinking I am a male sexually,
as I can't have sex with a female, and use my penis,like a normal male.with anybody!
"The ideal of male and female sharing one body has long been fertile soil in my psychic garden. These images explore the fusion of male and female which the berdache represents" - Berdache Tradition / healthyplace.com
is a big source for " Gender Dysphoria "
For example, I am technical homosexual, yet my differance from a traditional
gay male is I am not attracted to other gay males.
thus I am
more technically "androgynous" and "hermaphroditic"
and ever since I can remember , I have →Do Not Wanted a Penis on my body
Yet world assumes by having a penis you want to use it like a normal male !
Yet I am not a Normal male!
If for example; if I went to nude beach or modeled for art classes ,looking as I do above, in the 2 photos fits my desired sexual role.
No Penis Wanted !,
I think most Gay men , want their penis, thus Gay term doesn't fit me
"Briefly, a berdache can be defined as a morphological male who does not fill a society's standard man's role, who has a nonmasculine character. This type of person is often stereotyped as effeminate, but a more accurate characterization is androgyny.
They are not seen as men, yet they are not seen as women either. They occupy an alternative gender role that is a mixture of diverse elements.
berdache might become a wife to a man
Also understood that gender roles have to do with more than just biological sex. The standard Western view that one's sex is always a certainty, and that one's gender identity and sex role always conform to one's morphological sex is a view that dies hard.
excerpts from ;The Berdache Tradition Walter L. Willams
This is why I identify as " berdache type person "
My very defined, "nonmasculine character" is I want bred as though I am of the female sex.
I very much wish to be Wife roled to a Straight male
Iain McGilchrist and Jordan Peterson start talking of this adapting 11:20 in above talk,
they talk of radical personality change. Iain McGilchrist comfronts Peterson on his projecting his;
Certainity , which someone needed to!
I like Iain McGilchrist's view of " process of becoming "
( see " personality disintegration" below down page)
A radical "self culture " change came for myself in 1998 , when literally overnight, I went from being a Straight / heterosexual male, to being a 100% female roled male, 100% passive.
Though in my heart, I longed to be in the female role for a man, I fought it til this time, yet being in the right place,meeting a man who obviously thought I might be suited for the "role", a man whom was confident enough to ask me straight out " do you like suck cock ?", and my almost instant reply was, " I want to ", the next day I had his cock in my mouth, the following day, he was ejaculating deep up in my bottom. So within 2 days time I was 100% completely transformed in my sexual orientation, I never since have had any interest in sexually being with a female, my only desire / role is need to be in female role for a man.
9/22/2019 The Wanting a Vagina
Not wanting a Penis
Dysphoria is a Internal psychological conflict
For myself , I have wanted the surgery of replacing my penis with a female appearing vagina most of my life,
very much since 1998 when taking the Female role sexually,committing to the role 100%,
thus the desire grew more profound, out of wanting the role, wanted the man I was with to see,
I was very committed to the Role of Female, need to convey to my men , my great need to feel Lady-like.
I've always been content with the feel of having a man's cock up in my "bottom", the tightness,being filled,
yet obviously when I take my clothes off for him , so he can get his cock up in my bottom, having a penis,
seems distracting in the least, it isn't a terrible wish, yet a constant desire to "not have a penis"
gender dysphoria ; unhappiness with one's biological sex or its usual gender role, with the desire for the body and role of the opposite sex. - medical-dictionary.thefreedictionary.com/
We can't change what thoughts society has as a collective whole, or even too much at individual level,
Yet we can realize - they may not care, or have ability to understand
I do believe the below video represents humanity at current state
If one relates to what is said of " personality disintegration "(video above), then "development potential ", one sees most people don't go beyond stage 2 ,.......... "The Majority", .......thus the majority has a limited ability to judge very well on complex issues
Dąbrowski's Factors in personality development
The second factor, the social environment (milieu) and peer pressure, constrains individual expression and creativity by encouraging a group view of life and discouraging individual thought and expression. The second factor externalizes values and morals, thereby externalizing conscience. Social forces shape expectations. Behavior and one's talents and creativity are funneled into forms that follow and support the existing social milieu. "My mom says we should always be aware of what our lawn looks like because we want other people to think well of us when they drive by." Because conscience is derived from an external social context, so long as society holds ethical standards, people influenced by the second factor will behave ethically. However, if a society becomes corrupt, people strongly influenced by second factor will not dissent. Socialization without individual examination leads to a rote and robotic existence (the "robopath" described by Ludwig von Bertalanffy). Individual reactions are not unique, they are based upon social contexts ("I cry at funerals and laugh at weddings—everyone does"). According to Dąbrowski, people primarily motivated by second factor represent a significant majority of the general population.
Dąbrowski also described a group of people who display a different course: an individualized developmental pathway. Such people break away from an automatic, rote, socialized view of life (which Dąbrowski called negative adjustment) and are said to move into and through a series of personal disintegrations. Dąbrowski saw these disintegrations as a key element in the overall developmental process. Crises challenge our status quo and cause us to review our self, ideas, values, thoughts, ideals, etc
Many factors are incorporated in developmental potential but three major aspects are highlighted: overexcitability (OE), specific abilities and talents, and a strong drive toward autonomous growth, a feature Dąbrowski called the "third factor"